i wish for things. i wish that:

that this wasn't so awful - and that this wasn't so hard. that definitions and codifiers did their job properly, and that i could stop moving in triplicate. to put down the three versions of myself and stand up anew. to eat something and not have it sit heavy in my stomach like a curse. fulfill my potential or move away from it completely. give up on my heretic tendencie and settle into something stable.

i wish for things.